I wanted to make a change in my life but couldn’t until I put it out into the universe

“Never settle for the things that you think are impossible to attain…and never take no for an answer. Do it right now.” –

Bozoma Saint John

Back in early 2017, after many months of reflection and soul-searching, I finally admitted first to myself in the form of a prolific journal entry, and then out loud to my husband one night after we’d put the kids to bed and were enjoying a cool glass of white wine, that I was ready for a change.

I recall saying something like, “It’s time for me to go and I am serious this time.” After 15 years together, in some ways, he knows parts of me better than I know myself, so his response was typical – he shrugged as if to say, “No surprise there, babe. Now what are you going to do about it?” He’s my biggest cheerleader by the way, so don’t let the shrug fool you. I then took my second small step when I confided in one of my mentors. She too shrugged, but also shared some words of support, delivered with a heavy dose of pragmatic Queens, New York realness. Every time I’ve shared this insight with someone else, it’s felt good. And good vibes are addictive so I haven’t sharing and moving forward since.

I may not know when the dream will materialize, but I sure can feel the progress every time I stop to reflect and express gratitude inside of each day. I am eternally grateful for that tiny first step because it set in motion a multitude of mental and emotional adjustments that have continued to yield more and more goodness in my life… wonderful things that I am SO exceptionally grateful for that I sometimes forget about the dream because it feels like I am already in one.